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Monday, April 28, 2008

@ 9:30 PM

okays.. i am officially back to normal... from wat c from myself and i hope tt its is reli gone... i too dun wanna keep all those unhappy stuff wat right... i told myself tt its all over and itsno use for me to keep it all in me, causing trouble for all... its reli juz a no point ting.. yea.. okays.. i aopologise if i ever do u wrong or u feel offended.. and forgive me cos i was reli having some pms-ing problems.. reli.. and mayb u wil tink tt i am juz somekind of hypocrite trying to makea big fuss then i got nth to say.. reli... and i tel u i reli dun like ppl to tok behind my backk.. and i am sensitive okays.. hhaa.. ok.. chill.. its all kinds of man behaviour tt causes all thses.. reli.. cheer up and tink broader!

okays.. sch today reli is so darn tiring la.. i almost couldnt take it especially during the last lesson.. i was like sneezing and was so darn sleepy man.. and tt freaking tutor was so irritating.. sighs.. rushed home after sch and was so happy tt i am home.. keke.. had dinner wif parents and here i am infront of the comp.. i shall slp early tonight.. i hope so..

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Sunday, April 27, 2008

@ 9:20 PM

i tink i am pms-ing.. i dun feel like goin sch tmr.. i am tired man.. ands tmr got tt air con class which is so useless and i seriously dun like tt teacher.. he is so darn freaking hopeless la.. sighs.. plus i stil cant forgive u!! yea u!! give me sometime ok.. i stil cant get myself to behave like normal cos u reli disgusted me.. reli.. i hope u noe who u are and pls pardon me and give me some time.. i wil be alright i promise.. reli..

watched doomsday today.. the show was kinda funny la.. haha.. the movie was acceptable la.. but i stil tink tt street king is nicer.. keke.. i dun tink i gonna watch forbbiden kingdom cos i heard tt it not tt nice yea.. hehe.. tmr sch starts and ppl.. i finished my homework..!! tt floor plan and tt stupid IRDD research.. hah.. i am so proud of myself.. tis is probably a good start eh.. hehe

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Tuesday, April 22, 2008

@ 9:52 PM

Woo.. sch was nice cos i miss-ed some lessons to pei him.. haha.. went to eat at mensa.. then pei him at library lo.. time was flying everyting was good.. till...

sch ended early and there was a total change in him.. he didnt reli tok, didnt hold my hands and we were totally like 2 strangers.. we went to vivo and i voiced out my feelings and tinkin.. at first i thought i couldnt change him.. but i dun noe wat.. he juz changed.. i was crying agains la.. expected right.. of course he did mention some hurtful words but they are not tt harsh.. and finally... i got it out from his mouth.. it was cos of his fren who was goin to KL to work.. and the job he found was payin him high.. and dear was tinkin of goin to join him and juz leave me here.. and worst come to worst, our stroy shall end.. sighs.. he told me tt he was tinkin abt it.. and so his focus was not on me cos no matter how hard i tried to cheer him up on the way, there was no result at all!! sianzz..

i noe tt he did all these is for our future.. but i rather everyday go with bread and other stuff i also dun wan to leave him!! no way i shall let him do tis sacrisfy cos it is not worth it.. our future is not juz about being about to live comfortably wif loads of money, it is also abt the time we spent together and the love which keep our fire buring!! u get it???

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Monday, April 21, 2008

@ 11:12 PM

lol...first day of sch = WASTE OF MY TIME.. those lectures wil juz tel u tt.. oh.. u can purchase ur books from where where where. BUT they are not ready for sale yet.. so stupid right.. arghh.. and i juz can juz forget where to buy and follow the crowd then.. cos now can buy from FDM club.. i dun noe wats there problem.. juz get it from ASHRAE la.. and all wil be fine man!

then there is this air-con and hydraulic moduel.. omg la.. its like a PBL larh.. omg.. its like i pay money, go there and i teach myself or otherwise taught by other classmates.. its seriously so BO LIAO to me cans.. and tt teacher.. speaks some foregin language which no one understands.. its as if like some chanting tt makes u go to slp.. seriously.. omg.. sianzz.. and he says tt... we noe tt RP, everyday the students get in contact wif PBL and the students have to solve them and blah blah blah... i was like.. yea i noe.. but i am in TP and i dun give a dam.. if i like-d PBL, then i would have gone to RP but its so out of my choice la.. super cui cans..

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Sunday, April 20, 2008

@ 11:37 PM

Sch is starting.. omg.. in less then 12hrs time.. save me! i am so unprepared larhs.. haha.. cos it can be seen when i didnt print my timetable, ask tt qing ling help me to print, then i went outt todae til 11 then i reach home.. so cool la.. i am like so mentally unprepared to face the class cos from wat i noe there wil be new classmates cos 04 spilt class le.. and hear tt those newbies wont be those peaceful ones.. oh man! wat have i done to deserve tis.. sighss..

okays ppl.. get this clear ok!! i am from N703 and those newbies and from N704.. we are different and at tis current minute, i am stil unwilling to admit tt they wil be part of N703.. cos we are a peaceful group of ppl!! haha..

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Friday, April 18, 2008

@ 2:46 PM

omg.. i am reli like screaming over the timetable.. my CDs is like... 4-6pm again.. arghh.. and its like our class few ppl have such time slot.. i am goin to wait for 3 hrs alone la.. sianzz.. nvm.. its all for studies sake.. arghh... and heard from yunqi tt 04 split class and those bitches are coming.. sighs.. i thought tt we would hv a peaceful class from then on but now it seems like it is gonna be worst.. seriously.. y does it hv to be them man.. omg..

well well.. tok to dear yest.. andi told him.. 2 yrs from now, he wil HV to attend my graduation ceremony.. and he was like.. yea.. of course! haha.. even if we are not together!! lols.. i felt like some kinda princess givin orders..

watched the other boleyn gal yest.. show was nice nice nice.. oh.. and street king th day b4.. both movies are nice and maby.. if u hv time go watch it yea! sch hols is comin to an end.. and next sem's fri i wil like hv 8am lessons.. oh man!! i got to wake up like 6 plus la.. and its some kinda labtt cant missed de.. after tt is all lectures which kinda kills me off cos i dun like goin sch on fridays.. haha..

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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

hurt-ed @ 9:44 PM

i am hurt again.. its the same guy who loved me.. its always him him him and no one else.. sighs..

knowing tt todae is his last day at HFC i felt superbly sad.. cos it is the place where we started, it is the place that kept lots of memories.. and he is gonna be trasfered off.. i thought tt he would always be there to 'look after' our memories.. i dun blame him for leavin cos he dun reli have a choice.. but wat reli hurts me the most is.. he told me tt he dun wanna c me and he dun like to c me in store.. i was like.. hah? i am juz waiting for my fren here and i am juz droppin by to pass u a piece of cake.. he words reli hurt me.. i hate it.. why is it always like tt.. why cant he juz change his attitude.. sighs.. though i didnt tel him wat i was tinkin.. i reli feel so hurt.. i juz said fine, bye and i walked off.. and now he juz treat it as nth! NTH has happen.. and pls! dun lie to me.. AT ALL.. even if it is a small small matter, smaller than an ant, dun lie.. dun bother to lie and pretend nth has happen the next day.. u juz make me feel tt i am so useless and i am so being USED by u!

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Sunday, April 13, 2008

@ 11:38 PM

Woo.. time reli fly yea!! keke.. its been 5 days tt i didnt blog.. but it no worries, i am stil alive! keke.. sch goona start next wk le. omg.. but at least better then jun xian they all cos they starting sch tmr!! anyways.. rosemary.. jia yous k.. lol.. its been one year since u study.. hmmm.. more than 1 yr lo.. keke... i am like so not lookin forward to sch now.. cos i am reli enjoyin days now.. play comp, slp late, almost everyday see him.... no study, no stress, no worries.. keke.. omg la...

hmm... lets c... tis hols though i didnt do much stuff.. but at least i manged to work a few days, earned some money, went to genting, packed my room.. haha... and did some nice scrap book for him and stuff like tt.. though not many tings but its comfirm better than sloggin out at yoshinoya and then after work try to catch some films online.. slp late and refuse to wake up for work the next day.. keke...

and tel u a sad ting... somehow, my teeth is growin at the extreme end of my left bottom gum.. it super hurts can.. sighss.. the gum is like swollen and i hv ulcers.. omg.. wats happenin la.. torture torture torture na..

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Tuesday, April 08, 2008

@ 11:33 PM

hehe!! i told my mum i am goin for chalet and she gave tt black face!! but i dun care! i am goin.. yunqi, qing ling.. lols.. u got to help me yea!! i said tt i am goin on chalet from thu to sat!! okies... juz say classmates birthday lo.. haha... tis is juz for in case only.. dun worry.. keke.. juz like tt lo..

okies.. todae watched An empress and the warriors.. reli nice sia the movie.. the story is touchin.. omg la.. if i am in kelly chan's shoes i tink i wil juz like go and die!! lols.. haha... but she is reli veri wei da in the movie!! if u peeps have chance, go watch it ok.. its nice la.. trust me!! hehe..

erm.. i have decided to do a scarp book filled wif pictures and a paragraph for each page, and then.. the last page is a necklace for our 6mth-versary present!! lol.. any suggestions.. ppl!! help!! keke.. the big day is tis fri!! keke..

♥ Done & Loved ♥

@ 1:36 AM

okies.. the happy me is back.. tis wat love is all about.. hehe.. met him juz nowfor awhile.. at page one.. the outside.. hmm... the otherside.. not the entrance.. then tok and tok.. around 1 hr bahx.. while qing ling n liza went for a walk.. yay.. all cleared and our love increased!! opps.. keke.. then he msged me shortly after we parted and he wans to send me off.. keke.. he asked for permission.. lols.. so sweet larhs.. had some food before he send me off.. sat at the bus stop and chatted.. and here comes the bus.. hmm.. and decided to give it a miss and tok tok tok... so nice na.. was reli a nice one..

decided to go home myself cos he stil hv to return to store cos of stupid jap bosses.. nvm.. at least i get to c him todae and i am contented!!

and alan tan yip!! no manners.. i say u nv c me le and u stil tel him tt u saw me!! roar!!

i was playin daidee wif tom and qing ling til 5 min ago.. time to slp!! nites.. tmr i c him c him c him!!

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Sunday, April 06, 2008

@ 12:25 AM

hmm.. i am stil pms-ing.. i dun noe.. i get irritated for no reasons when i am aloneat home.. i am like so hot tempered.. mayb cos alone at home makes me feel bored.. but its like so wired la.. but i am feeling better now.. yea.. so hope everyting wil juz get better.. tmr i most probably wil be staying at home and be a good girl since mum says she wil be out of the hse!! great.. at least peace for me.. mayb i wil pack my stuff, mayb i wil clean my room, may i wil rot.. lol.. lots of possibilities lo.. hehe..

went to met him juz now since surprisingly he dun hv to stay todae.. had gloria jeanscoffe which sctually sux.. lol.. hmm.. he tok to me abt some stuff tt was small but for a unknown reason, i got pissed off... but i didnt show it out.. i took a deep breathe and swallowed it makin tears flowin again.. sighsss.. i wonder if i am stil a human cos i am reli behaving wiredly recently.. probably i reli need to release off my temper somehow soon.. too much tings has happen and i wonder when the last strawwill come.. well.. i hope when it coms, it wont be tt disastrous cos i love.. i stil love..

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Friday, April 04, 2008

@ 10:44 PM

yay!! went for qing ming early in the morning .. yawn.. keke.. then after tt went to meed lao gong le!! yay.. ate ajisen ramne and replaced my ez link card tt i lost yest.. wa lao a.. it cos a bomb la can. haiz.. promised my self tt i shall be careful wif my stuffs.. hehe.. then after tt went to k box at kallang leisure park.. hehe.. sang for 5 hrs.. got kinda bored and decided to play daidee while listening to songs.. and time flies.. and i got emo-ed again.. cos i juz cant stand the thought of not see-ing him for 3 consecutive days la.. then cried lo.. hehe.. but after tt ok le.. rlei enjoyed myself todae.. hmm shall plan wat i gonna do these 3 days w/o him.. tmr probably shalll stay home.. then sun mayb goo out and mon probably cycling wif jun xian they all bahx.. plan is temporary likett but subjected to changes yea.. hehe... anyone wans to date me.. faster b4 sch starts eh.. otherwise too bad le.. lol..

juz pass by gess choir blog.. they had choir everyday tis weekkk.. kinda pit them but tt's the way if u guys wanna put up a good show and impress all.. its worth all the hard work, reli.. and trust me tt performances wil gule u guys to be more united, more as a team!! jia yous..

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Thursday, April 03, 2008

@ 10:07 PM

another day tt i wasted.. lol.. nvm.. at least i noe wat i did.. keke.. i painted my nails again yest.. but i tel u.. i am still emo-ing for no reasons.. how long can we pms huh.. its like so torturous for me and those ard me.. especially the poor him la. kekke... i juz hope tt the 'good' fren can faster come and i can get over wif all the pms nonsense.. lol.. Seriously, watever a gal said during pms period cant be believed de.. hehe.. i noe tt of course.. lol...

hmm.. i missed the sch mentor camp and so does yiwen and yunqi i guess.. lol.. super funny la.. all wanted to go but all didnt go.. i wanted to go... but juz not in the mood eh.. yea lo.. cannt blame me horx.. otherwise i kill!! lol.. i kill ppl de if u blame me anyhows.. lol..

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

@ 11:10 PM

i am pms-ing again.. can u believe it.. i actually feel tt tis sch hols is not enough or in otherwords, i hv woke up and realised tt i have wasted my 7wks of preciuos hols.. i said i wannapack my stuff especiallytohse btw me and him, i said i wanna pack my room, i said i wanna fix jisaw puzzle.. but... nth takes place.. i juz watsed my time.. doin wats.. i dun noe.. i onlynoe tt i went for work, i went cycling once, i went genting and tt's all.. its such a wow!!

and i went for tis job interview juz now.. i was so eager to work but now... everyting steam off.. cos i realised tt i did nth so leave alone to work to kill off my hols and to earn somemoney.. i nvfelt so unsatisfaied wif my own performance b4.. haizz... now.. should i give up tis job?? its a permanent job lei.. will i be able to work when sch starts or will i juz live my life like last sems where i juz juggle btw studies and relationship.. wil i be able to take it if i work?? wil i hv enough time for sch?? wil i hv enought time for him?? wil i juz give up my job half way and find way to lead my life all over again juz like tt time when i left yoshi i felt so lost..??!! oh no!!

♥ Done & Loved ♥