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Thursday, September 28, 2006

@ 8:38 PM

i got a terrible sore throat todae.. sianzzz.. throat reli hruts la.. how to go bbq like tt on sat.. i dun care.. i will go.. i wanna go.. cos its class gatherin.. so muz go.. lol... i wanna play.. then will start to study..

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

@ 7:59 PM

sianzz sianzzz sianzzz.. tis time i break record... for watchin a vcd so slowly.. lol... reli lo.. i like watc one episode yest... argh... when am i goin to finish the show like tt.. and i hv to start studyin liao lo.. it's like i juz realise tt esther chua and lim bun actually tok abt me.. shit... y am i the one.. i was kind of shock..
hmm i didnt reli do well for my prelims.. seriously.. but those papers suppose to do better didnt happen and those papers tt i was suppose to do badly.. was doin much better.. omg.. wat kind of world is tis huh.. even marks go against me!! i reli darn sianzzz lo.. sometimes i feel like studyin.. but when the time i get ready to study... i already sian liaozzz... arghhhhhhhhhh

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@ 7:59 PM

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Sunday, September 24, 2006

SLaCk the Whole Day @ 9:57 PM

... i slack the whole day todae.. slept till 12noon then wake up.. watch tv.. hv lunch.. look around in the hse to pass the whole day.. wat the...
yest was like busy.. cos i went yoshi work... go there and kill time.. it was juz borin.. further comfirm tt i gonna leave yoshi after my Os.. i reli veri tired of repeating the same job for a darn long period of time.. though i will she bu de my "mum" and my "yeye" there.. after all we took long time to come to tis stage.. lol.. they are juz like my real family members.. but others and envious.. cos the both of them are not crew.. but store-in-charge and area manager respectively.. when i got to noe abt tis.. i was like.. ok... stop spreadin around tt i was tryin to build relations ok.. they all hv real story behind it.. and watever it is.. i am gonna leave tt place.. i reli dislike the feelin of ppl pointin behind my back and say tings tt are 110% not true.. and the pt is.. they tok so loudly tt i can hear.. so dumb... watever lo..

i hint my dad todae to buy new phone liaoz.. he was like.. ok.. when we are all free.. but if i buy N73.. i will to spend alot.. my own money.. how ar.. one side is spend then spend lo.. your are goin to work after Os.. so stil wil hv money de.. but the other side is.. they are your hard earn money.. mum wil scream and nag for days.. how?? how?? how??

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Friday, September 22, 2006

wENt to sCh.. DUn NOe waT i Hv DOne @ 10:51 PM

darn sianzz.. todae go school did practically nth... cos the teachers are like goin through papers.. only like 3 papers todae.. sianz... total waste of time lo.. the only ting tt might be useful is tt i took lots of photos for others during lesson for the video.. i even took esther chua and jun xian described it as some porn photo la.. omg.. tt's all lo.. i did reli badly for my prelims i guess.. haiz.. nvm...

.. lol...
MS mah Says: smile and pass through all these.. ai ya.. she said someting like tt todae.. lol..

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Thursday, September 21, 2006

day at sentosa @ 10:57 PM

went sentosa wif rose and rui jun todae.. though only 3 of us but still fun lo.. lol.. tt stupid rose darn funny la.. say tt she didnt get darker.. then become so unhappy.. spent our time there layin around.. even took retarded video.. spastic.. but it was reli a realxin time..

sianzzz.. tmr need go back sch liaozz.. i still didnt cathc enough slp yet.. wat the hell.. wats wrong wif the sch.. i dun feel like gettin results lo..

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

exAms fiNAlly fInisH liaoZ @ 10:58 PM

haha.. todae exam finally ended... at 1353pm.. lol.. i was waitin for the time to come though i didnt reli finish the paepr.. ai ya.. i also dun reli care liaoz.. cos i noe i wont do well.. ok.. i tel myself not to kick a big fuss abt prelims if i reli didnt do well.. comfort myself by sayin it's juz prelims... i dun wanna go JC well.. at least i hope it will help to comfort myself lo.. not tt i slack.. didnt study.. juz tt i didnt study enough lo.. so told myself to rest for a while first before i "chiong" for o levels.. hope i hv tt kind od discipline!!

juz now went safra.. wif the same grp of ppl.. went there for bowlin.. but one played one game cos dun reli like it when all got STC ppl around.. lol.. we dun like them.. yea.. so went to arcade.. play and play and play like crazy to de-stress.. lol.. then went to take pictures.. tt martin la.. make me, rui jun, xiu ting jumped and jumped.. cos all the photos are blurred.. lol.. took awhile before we kind of give up.. make do wif wat we hv.. then went home at seven like tt lo.. tmr i goin sentosa.. to reli relax?? or to kill time?? lol.. i also not sure.. haha

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Saturday, September 16, 2006

@ 11:55 PM

todae not so disappointed liaozzz.. kinda "xiang tong" ans believe tt they will live up to the occassion lorh.. so juz dun need tink too much cos they also wont appreciate at all.. so.. wat for lei..

juz now went mac to study.. at first kinda cant settle down.. like veri distracted.. but after tt then ok le.. i also dun noe y.. lol.. prelims are still goin on.. i reli darn sian... darn tired.. not juz prelim but everyting else on tis world... not tt i didnt put in effort.. but i juz dun understand y i always dun get the results i wan... in studies.. in actual life.. haiz.. wat am i goin to do.. y is it tt i only learn to cherish stuff when only when i realise tt thay are goin to be gone.. y? y? y?.. so wat should i do to prevent myself from facin tis again?? lock my self at home?? be a 100% pest when i am in sch..?? screamin at everyone i see.. makin them hate me and eventually hate me.. i tired to de distracted.. not to tink of so many tings.. but when i am alone.. settled down.. my minds start to go wild.. a total different person in sch.. but u guys wil nv get to see tt i.. i swear.. not even my parents had seen it.. probably my astro-boy did bahx.. and i can say tt countless drops on tears were on him since he was wif him.. haiz..
a reli difficult life for me to live on.. i am darn sick wif it..

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Friday, September 15, 2006

UttErly disapPoinTed.. @ 10:56 PM

todae i still went back to help for choir after tinkin through yest.. actually kinda ookk lo.. juz tt sop 1 was reli saddenin la.. they didnt perform.. they juz played and played like no one's business.. i darn irritated and kinda angry when they do combined tt time.. cos sectionals do so well then go for combine.. all gone.. back to square one.. i was like.. .. haiz.. then thye juz play and joke.. i see liaozz reli sadded la.. givin tis kind of heck care attittude/contented attidue cos ms khor say they are loud enough.. no..!! the tone colour is NOT there.. and its veri obvious tt they nv sing properly.. is as if like they go k-box sing for fun like tt.. but too bad k-box got no such songs.. and tt 1st vice-president.. HALO!! went tiong to buy present.. late for choir.. wah.. thx ar.. great example.. perfect example i hv ever since in my 4yrs in choir.. ..

i seriously suggest tt someone or some fairy god mother come to choir and give tis ppl a gd scoldin.. i noe thay are better then the other 3schs.. but no way will they get even s silver wif this kind of attitude.. even ms khor also say now standard..=COP!! wat the hell.. better change your attittude ppl..!! since i go back and help u all.. u all dun appreciate.. fine... no more of such tings.. even if i go back, i wil not help durin sectionals anymore.. either prove tt i am wong.. u all will survive by getting a gold or prove tt i am right by gettin a bronze..
show me improvements in your attittude before i get someone to scream at u all.. the person will nv be me... AGAIN.. i am tired.. since u guys tinks tt i am juz tokin rot.. juz scold for fun or juz another PMS-er!!

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Prelims.. sianZ.. @ 2:07 PM

juz reach home.. though paper end at 11plus.. cos go eat lunch wat.. it seems to me tt it has become a habit of me... using comp once i reach home.. haha.. cool... but its like exam period now.. so SOME one was like sayin.. so free..??!! (tt JUn XIan) watever la.. he was being "Suan" by me and martin.. haha.. if he nv use comp how he noe tt we use comp leix.. lol.. lame la... tmr fri.. got choir.. tinkin veri hard whether to pei carol to go back to see them notzz.. i scare thay screw up.. haiz... sad sad sad.. worry worry worry.. todae chem was ok bahx. at least easier then mid yr..

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Sunday, September 10, 2006

@ 10:07 PM

sianzzz.. todae went to mac to study in the afternoon.. though didnt reli do much stuff but at least i dun feel like i am wastin time like stayin at home.. lol.. mayb cos there no tv and comp bahx.. lol.. tmr is physics prac liaozz.. i reli dun noe how i will perform.. screw up like chem prac?? do it properly?? i reli dun noe.. but i noe i will try my best.. lol.. JIa you..

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Saturday, September 09, 2006

todae's better @ 11:39 PM

todae suppose to go and meet jun xian they all to study at 2plus de. but cai yun came my hse.. so didnt go lo.. but at least i studied ss todae.. kinda fininsh the whole sec 3 bk.. left wif 1and 1/4 chapter nia.. i realise tt i wasted my 1 wk holiday.. dun noe doin wat..lol.. besides mon went for concert nia... sianzz.. i tink i gonna screw up my whole prelims.. mayb last in class.. lol.. mvn lo.. though will feel "dui bu qi zi ji".. but i dun wan go jc.. so prelim is juz another exam..(well.. at least tink like tis.. i feel better)..

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Thursday, September 07, 2006

@ 11:05 PM

Choir performing.. my last performance

ms khor cuttin cake at monk's hill sec school.. i gonna miss her!!

image kinda blur?? of course la.. cos the train was arriving.. lol.. so cool..

smileX... us wif ms khor and seroyen!!

thx for attendin the concert.. thx alot..!!

♥ Done & Loved ♥

@ 1:28 PM

sianzzzz.. i am bored to death stayin at home.. i juz cant study... i dun noe y.. my mind juz keep runnin wild.. probably i need a counselor lo.. lol.. i cant believe wat is happenin to me.. wat the hell...

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

haizzz @ 10:36 PM

todae me didnt go for physics lesson.. cos cant wake up.. yea so pon lo.. juz now i went k box wif cai yun and sok kwan... i noe tt when u ppl read my blog.. some of u will say tt prelims are comin.. still go k box.. but i juz cant help it.. i cant study.. my mind is not focus.. i juz keep tinkin abt those memories tt i hv wif gess choir.. everyting seems to pass so fast.. i juz cant forget how ms khor looks into my eyes.. haizz.. i juz cant stop tinkin.. i tried to study.. but i juz cant.. i feel like cryin but i hold back my tears cos i juz refuse to believe tt i luf choir tt much.. i didnt noe tt i hv plunged into tis deep hole w/o me knowin.. i thought tt i didnt actually like choir.. i juz attend for the sake of CCA.. but i didnt noe tt i hv feelings.. shit... wat the hell am i tokin abt.. arghhhhhhhh.. i juz feel like slappin mysef.. or go back to my old self~cuttin de seekia.. i reli dun noe wat is happenin.. i juz leave in my own world.. help help..!!

♥ Done & Loved ♥

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

my choir @ 12:50 PM

haizzz.. yest choir concert went on veri smoothly.. when performin the final two songs tt time.. i juz like veri sad lorh.. cos after tt no more concert liaoz... no more stage for me liaoz.. no more SYF.. then i realise tt ms khor was lookin at me when singin.. it's like first time she made eye contact wif me.. i was like darn... haiz... i will reli miss choir... especially da pianist.. seroyen.. cos more of seein someone playin piano like him.. juz feel wired... in choir four yrs liaoz... sob sob.. juz cant bear to leave.. seriously...

how how how... someone help me.. i feel veri sad... feel kinda empty in me!!! shit!! y am i feelin like tis.. i thought i dun reli like choir de..??!! how come will like tt..

♥ Done & Loved ♥