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Saturday, December 29, 2007

life sux @ 7:30 PM

sometimes i juz feel so fed up u noe.. its like y cant he juz be more social-able. since we already agreed to hv a count down at hfc on the31st... then wat for insist on goin on at 1230?? y he juz pei us to watch a movie ard 11pm de and then go home around one plus.. juz one hour more only ma.. y cant he juz give in.. y y y!!!! argh.. i reli juz hope tt he can join us tis time!!! since alien vs predator 2 he also wanna watch de.. y not join us.. always we 2 watch movie only he not sian meh.. juz tis once only.. i reli hope tt he can go lo.. haizz... super saddenin... spoils my day!! i am in superno mood todae for a unknown reason.. no one goes out wif me.. and i simply cant be bothered to find ppl!! i dun wanna stay home, i dun wanna go out.. wat i simply wan i also dun noe can!! arghh.. might as well juz go and die.. i feel so useless speding my saturday rottin at home when i used to be workin, spending time away at yoshinoya.. i am like so wanna work but i resign partly cos i dun wanna hv cinflict wif him cos of work!! i feel so frustrated abt life now!!

i juz wanna find new job to earn some pocket money now and i juz wished tt he could understand me more!! sometimes i hv afeeling like we are not meant for each other and frequently having insecurities tt we might juz "blow off" .. arghh.. life suxxx

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Friday, December 28, 2007

@ 10:34 PM

sighssss... holidays willbe over in no time.. sianz lo.. tis is how i spend my holidays.. choir, dating, rotting at home.. haha.. super shiok can! but now got to do htm project le.. otherwise suer kanna sleep-less nights when sch starts.. dun wanna die so fast can!!! hehe...

todae rotted at home til 3 then go bathe and went to meet him!! haha.. rotted at coffee bean for ard 1 hrs plus.. hehe.. got to noe tt geraldine wil be leavin store le.. on the 30th last day.. ralf wil take over.. anyways i dun noe how to spell his name na!!! watever can.. tt mr how is like so happy tt geral is happy.. i mean work wise since she is like not a veri convincing in-charge which i agree.. like jay said before.. she is stil unsure of her duties as a in-charge.. since i left ar.. i pity tt mr how lo... everyting he has to do.. somemore muz remind her of her job.. then no more certain stocks they also dun inform one... as if like he is the in charge like tt no.. its like so wat the f*** tt kind can.. haha.. but i dun give a darn la.. since i am not longer there.. anyways.. i wanna find new job yea!!!

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Wednesday, December 26, 2007

@ 10:32 PM

woot!! time flies.. i havent been bloggin for pass few days.. haha.. was super busy..

23rd dec
it was concert day!!! yay.. was so cool la.. slaced at home til noon then met the alumnis ard two plus at tiong.. hv lunch there.. me and van drank sweet talk, ate old chang kee.. opps..it's like concert is juz tonight... i tink ms khor is gonna roar when she c this.. haha.. concert at night was successful though we only had 40min for make upand dinner... super rush can.. but nvm.. cos it was fun.. i was like holding a hair spray, running ard, sparying ppl's hair when i c them.. hehe.. then after tt went for supper wif kah wee, alan, melissa.. tt mr how pangseh-ed us half way... haiz.. but nvm.. cos after tt we peace le.. so dun wanna tok abt it anymore yea..

24th dec..
christmas eve!!! yay.. spend the night wif him!! a unforgettable one yea!!
went to see doggies at 3rd floor of vivo city.. my god!! so cute la.. i wan to keep one too.. but i dun like those super big like sha pei and those super small de like chihuahua... haha.. then saw tis dog tt has super no fur... like some kinda of deer lo... skinny like hell...brown colour de.. my god la..

25th dec
went to aunt's hse in the afternoon for the annual christmas party.. got lots of food!! superlots.. sushi, satay, chicken wings, fish ball, otah, log cake, ham, jellies and lotsmore... wa.. c the foood already super super food liao la!! then tao-ed some for him since i am meeting him later.. hehe.. then went to watched i am lengend... didnt reli understand it lo.. but cant be borthered... haha..

26th dec
met him at vivo.. hehe.. ate yoshi beef bowl!! my god.. miss it super super lots lots!! haha.. went to c doggies again.. then at the grooming place saw tis super small puppy tt was being groom.. poor ting la... it was shivering like mad can.. so poor ting lo.. kinda pity it.. and saw the other door dying some colour.. haha.. funny lo.. nice nice lo..

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Thursday, December 20, 2007

@ 11:10 PM

okays.. went out for the whole day.. haha.. watched national treasure wif him at vivo.. the GV max de.. so was like many many ppl.. but cant be bothered.. we are in our own worlds.. haha.. then after tt went for kim gary.. ate the pork chop burger and shared the french toast.. yum yum.. by tt time we finished was ard 5 le la.. lol.. then decided to go orchard which is wat we intended de...but cos it was rainin in the morning ma.. hehe.. so decided to go vivo lo.. got shelter all the way ma.. bleah.. walked ard, try to get a white top and silver shoes but cant make it.. sianzz.. didnt buy anyting lo... arghh.. then walked all the way to glass hseto eat fish and co.. we bothj didnt finish it la.. cos was kinda full but i simply love the passion fruit drink!!! hehe.. dun noe y.. its juz soda water wif passion fruit syrup lo.. but cant be bothered.. haha.. then rot ourselves away.. hehe..

choir concert is coming le... muz jiayou lo.. muz take care of voice!! wat can i do w/o a proper voice during concert day?? haha..

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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

@ 10:30 PM

went for choir todae in the afternoon.. hehe.. morning i was.. okays.. nvm.. shall not mention it.. hehe.. anyways.. todae choir was so horrible.. its like out of tune, sharp, flat.. watever all the shit.. tried swoping positions wif altos but cant work.. lol.. at least soprano one was doin fine i mean compared to others... haha.. sang tt dream sellers like dun noe how many times.. all sop ones almost fainted cos have to do phrasing tt lasted for 4 solid bars.. arghhh... my god la.. some more dun breathe then wil flat. breathe muz fast otherwise kanna "caught".. lol.. and we starting eating up words juz to breathe.. haha.. super funny la.. by the time we move to commerce rm and did 2 songs of longing.. i was like totally swtiched off le.. reli cant listen, juz sing in our own world le.. and luckily some where ard tis time yantong came!!! woot!!! finally one more sop 1 and the figure stil remains at the pathetic 6!! lol.. ok la.. at least one more person.. can breathe more.. haha..

ended rather early todae.. wanted to go tiong wif rose they all de.. but its like tt shumei goin off then rose meeting her aunt to buy clothes then yantong goin home for dinner.. then might as well i go home then on the way packet food and enjoy tv at home.. hehe.. finally gt to eat silently wif the tv!!! yay!!! then after tt rot and rot til now lo.. oh yea.. i finally managed to get junxian on the phone!! he is goin for tis sundays concert!! i reli hope we do well yea.. pray hard!!! and hope i can fit nicely into the dress by then!!

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Sunday, December 16, 2007

@ 9:01 PM

hiaz.. life isnt good... y cant he be more understanding?? at times i reli juz feel tt i am ranked right below his list.. everyting includin soccer, tv... all comes first.. second time he hangs up my phone.. i swear i am not goin to cal him back... fuck man.. he said tt he is goin back to his oldself next mth... probably time for me to draw back my love slowly incase i hurt myself deeply!!! i reli detest the feeling of being hurt by love ones deeply!!! i hate it and i believe no one likes it... but.. i simply cant any more reasons to carry on like tt.. i need time.. i reli need time!! fuck off..

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Friday, December 14, 2007

@ 9:17 PM

okays.. i got some veri sad news.. i cant fit perfectly onto my choir dress.. my god.. diet is on,defintely on for me!! i dun care no matter wat.. if i eat too much i gonna make myself throw it up!!! i dun care otherwise i wont perform.. i am veri serious... i wil be so paiseh can... so.. nonono.. diet diet diet!! arghhh

oh yea.. went for choir todae.. hehe.. though the number is shrinkin, but the choir standard is stil there.. it is so called the quality ones.. haha.. learned dream seller and it was such a nice one espcially for the sop 1 part.. muz practice more to make it perfect!! i dun care.. i wil be a veri stubborn person from tmr onwards.. so ppl, step further otherwise i wil roar!!! i am reli goin to push myself over the fence.. i dun care!!!

and.. todae he went to find belinda for comfirmation letter.. and guess wat.. he was comfirmed and at the sametime promoted to 2nd ass. manager!! yay!!! finally.. jia yous worx..

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Thursday, December 13, 2007

@ 9:48 PM

wee!! tmr last paper!! TBP.. my god.. dun borther la.. now can rmb, so hopefully tmr also can lo.. and after tt i am free.. finally.. reli hate the feeling of locking myself at home, telling myself to study when i totally refuse... haha.. and todae.. i went to watch warlords le.. my god... the guys inseide so shuai... but i dun reli understand.. dun borther.. all i noe i the story goes ard these 3 brothers who ended betrayed and killed each other cos of one woman.. and the woman also died.. so practically all died.. haha.. kinda stupid..

todae's esfac paper was acceptable except for those mcq quest.. abit out de..nvm.. anyways.. no high marks i suppose and no fail( of course, otherwise forcing myself is useless).. haha.. okays... then tmr last paper but i went out wiff a cant be bothered attitude.. bleah.. then after test tmr i goin for choir practice le.. yay.. hope everyting goes well.. haha.. otherwise paiseh lo..

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Tuesday, December 11, 2007

@ 1:03 PM

Wee.. Maths is gone for good sake since yest.. haha..could do most of it so i guess its alright yea.. haha.. anyways.. i wil be rotting at home for todae and tmr.. hehe.. cos no exams.. next wil be on thu.. lol.. and then fri.. and.. i am free!! yay..

saw qing ling's phone yest.. it was the one tt i wanted to buy long long ago.. but cos no money.. and so.. didnt buy yet.. anyways.. reli like the phone liao.. haizz... nvm.. when got money then say bahx.. bleah!!

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Sunday, December 09, 2007

@ 4:58 PM

i miss him lots.. i feel so sorry.. cos he wasntfeeling well, but stil came out to meet me.. y?? cos he was afraid tt i wil misunderstand tt he simply doesnt wanna meet me plus we alreadt bought tickets for NANKING le.. so i bought him so medicine from home.. it reli breaks my heart.. i reli didnt noe tt he was tt sick.. haiz.. then some more went to esprit to shop cos got 20% discount for members.. i bought him a shirt.. yay.. but he was reli sick somemore insist on goin for the movie.. but end up he didnt go.. and guess wat.. the cinema was suppose to be full hse.. but i suppose cos of us it was not. haiz.. and before he left, he somemore wanna help me sell the tickets first... but i insist tt he goes home.. i wanna pei him to take train de.. but he didnt wan.. haiz..

feellin super worried for him... super guilty for askin him out.. but i swear i didnt noe until he called me and ask me to bring him medicine.. and at tt time, he was already at vivo le and he sounded real ok! haiz.. wat should i do now.. i am super super emo though i bought clothes tt i love lots!!!! simply not happy!!!

i need him
i need advise
i need a shoulder
i need a listenin ear

i wan him
i wan him to be well
i wan him by my side
i wan to c him
i wan to be there
i wan to take care of him
i wan to noe how he is doin

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Saturday, December 08, 2007

@ 3:37 PM

okays.. time flies.. reli flies. term test is next wk leand i am stil rotting at home.. sianzz.. met him yest for lunch before goin to bugis library to meet qing ling, liza,yiwen to study.. was suppose to meet them at 1.. but i told them i wil be lat.. guess wat.. i was at tiong, goin to bugis already and they are stil in TP!!! arghh... wat.. i hv to wait again... nvm lo.. i go first.. and then.. ard 2 near three.. i ask liza if they are comin liao.. she say at aljunied.. and it took them 1 hours plus to reach library.. by that time i already no mood le plus i hv already done those maths paper liao.. so decided to leave with him and go for a walk.. hehe.. and decided todae not goin to meet them and to study at home instead...

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Monday, December 03, 2007

@ 11:54 PM

i skipped esfac lab todae la... juz to go and meet him.. haiz...hmm.. everyting went on fine.. i mean average.. forget it.. i swear i am not goin to mention it cos i promised him not to shed tears of saddness when he is not ard.. so ppl.. pls dun ask tmr.. do me a favour.. all i wanna say is i am fine.. reli.. haiz.. i guess he isnt feeling great either but he stil have to worry abt me.. y is he the one who always share my burden and i am always addin on to his burden? i feel so sorry.. i feel so useless.. my god.. haizz.. it reli pains me to c comforting me when he himself need someone to comfort him.. i am super useless.. but nvm.. i hv to be strong and u i believe i can!!!

days have been passing without me noticing.. everyday is so hurry.. everyday is so fast that i am backing out.. i cant take it anymore.. term test is coming.. ihtm reprot by friday.. my god... save me.. was listenin to by ella.. was so emo.. and guess wat... i hv decided tt i wil keep a dog!! probably if me and him can last cos he reli love dog and i am startin to love it too!! hehe.. i wan a huggable one but he didnt.. cos he is jealous of me huggin the dog instead of him.. lol.. i am reli getting crazy as each day pass.. plus i am super random these days!!!

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